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These Scars Don't Bleed

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I do it to myself all the time.

I don't try to hurt myself,

Or make myself bleed,

But I torture myself

With the crimson chains

That I wrap around myself

So I don't have to feel.


I spin these cobwebs in my mind

And trap myself in my terror.

I stab my heart again and again

And push my nerves to breaking point.


Someone dead I could have saved.

Sometimes I fail from cowardice,

Sometimes from not knowing enough,

Sometimes from reading all the signals wrong.

Either way, they're dead,

And I failed them.


And the thought chokes me

Even though it never happened.


Trust betrayed by every friend,

A fear so deep it will never fade.

I still remember the sting of the past,

All the times it happened before,

And now I'm just waiting,

Watching the clock,

Watching the knife that slices my time

Waiting for it to cut me loose again.


And the thought makes me shiver

Even though I'm safe – for now.


Snapping, breaking, losing myself,

The vivid darkness all too clear,

And I wonder how I see my shadow

Thrown into such sharp relief

As I set the pallid stage

For the finale of this tragedy.


And the thought horrifies me

Even though I'm still sane.


Although sometimes I wonder if I am.


Why would anyone sane

Choose to torment themselves like this?

And yet I do it all the time.

But I fear to call for help,

Which makes me twice a coward.

Unable to face my fears,

Unable to face another.


I was always the one

Who was willing to walk through the dark,

However much it scared me,

But now I wonder if those shadows

Reached into my mind

And still linger somewhere

In that withered, dying thorn

I call my heart.

I finally got round to doing another audio piece, yay! Even if the piece in question is pretty depressing. Here's the link to the audio: soundcloud.com/ladyoffrost/the… .
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Felicia-Neko's avatar
love this! :) might be dark... but i like this alot because it kinda sounds how my life is going